1 month update!

Ok, so I haven't been on for over a month and there has been a reason to that and that was, I was determined not to write another blog until I'd reached my ultimate mini goal of 105lbs.

In fact a couple of weeks ago I reached 103lbs but the next day I felt so faint (having not eaten anything for 3 days) I had to eat and I ended up eating breakfast, lunch and dinner, seemingly normal to most people but my body just clung onto as much of it as possible and obviously I gained weight. I can't remember how much but I did manage to stabilise, get back on track and I've reached 105lbs another few times since then untill this weekend!

Anyway, this weekend, I ate... and ate... and ate and I got up to a discusting 110lbs! I've only eaten a few grapes today, and chewed and spat my dinner and I've managed to get down to 107lbs. I hope to stabilise at 104/105lbs by next tuesday and I'm on a almost starvation diet untill then. Hopefully not going above about 600kcals in 6days. The real trouble is that when I don't eat for days on end, and then force myself to eat or faint, I end up binging and putting on loads of weight. So basically this week, the challenge is to avoid binges. Typically my binge for one day would be roughly 1000-2000kcals depending on how bad I felt so you can see how badly that would affect my weight and horribly, fat too.

Anyway, in the last month, I also broke up with my boyfriend of nearly 2 years, he was a bastard, cheated on me - but there you go, story of my life, I should never trust anyone, it always backfires. At least now I can focus on my goals without a watchful eye.

So... stats:

Weight: 107lbs
Target: 104lbs
By: Hopefully sunday, latest tuesday

Will update soon, happy dieting all!