Mondays...

I don't know why but Monday's are always the worst day for me, I always overeat on Mondays. Today I had at least 750 kcals and I feel totally disgusted in myself, no matter how hard I try I can't seem to get below 8 stone, I'm unbearably fat, it's so repulsive, no wonder no one likes me! Today's been kinda stressy, I had lessons in the morning and then ever since I got home I've been on and off doing my English essay on Shakespeare's "Much Ado about Nothing", I know if I don't get an A I'll feel like a big fat failure but I still can't concentrate on it, it's due in tomorrow and I'm not even half way through it! I don't know what to write because everything I write I think it'll be wrong and I won't get good grades, what makes it worse is that it's worth 30% of my AS grade!!! I really hope things go well but I've got this action plan for tomorrow to detox my body of all the shit I've been eating the past few days which might help me concentrate a bit better on school.

Here it goes:

Breakfast: Cup of tea
Lunch: Water and gum
Dinner/snacks: Cup of tea, 2 small carrots and 10 raisins, water.

I hope that regulates my weight a bit, my mini goal at the moment is to reach 7stone 7lbs, then after that, 7stone, then 6stone 9lbs then 6stone 4lbs then 6stone and then I think thing's will be better and I'll definatly be much happier and in control.